Foreword by Julie Garfield (John Garfield's daughter) for Robert Nott's book "He Ran All the Way: The Life of John Garfield" (2004) I've kept him as a God because I need to, but -in his integrity, in his refusal to name names- was he not godlike? How many could have held out like he did? Could I have?" My father's ghost comes back to me when I meet people who say "I knew Johnny", even though I know they didn't because nobody who really knew him called him anything but Julie. For me the past isn't so ugly so much as it's sad: sad to have been robbed of my father, the charismatic movie star, at the age of seven, sad that my father died of a massive heart attack at the ripe old age of 39 years -it was more like an attack on his heart, by his own country and by his own friends, including those he had most revered: the Kazans and the Odets, the ones who betrayed their own kind to save their careers. "The past rears its ugly head", people often say. "You can't tell about your life until you're all through living it" -John Garfield as Joe Morse in "Force of Evil" (1948)
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